If I'm going to be honest as to why I've been very distant with my blogging, it's because I'm so bored with my life at the moment. I feel like I'm just existing and barely living. I don't know why this has come about, but I just don't feel excited by my own life at this very moment. I could pin it down to exam study and school, but I don't think finding an excuse would help at all. I need to get back into exciting myself and doing things in my life that bring me that thrill and excitement that I so dearly crave. It's a new month, and this last month has been full of both highs and lows, and I'm actually scared to see what this month holds for me. I'm kind of petrified to see how different my life might be at the end of this month. So much has managed to change in this last month and to think that that may happen again throws me back a little. I don't know what this month will bring me, but I know that I'm going to try my best to find what excites me in my life again. I'm not going to sit around waiting for someone to make me happy, but rather do it myself and find my happiness again. The beauty of a new month is that it's almost a new beginning in some ways. It's giving you an excuse to start again, even if nothings particularly gone wrong, it's still a fresh start. I will try to get back into regular blogging again, but I want to do it because I'm excited about whats happening in my life rather than finding things that I don't particularly care about to write a post on. Happy May, I hope this month treats you all well.